Every year we always say this is our year this year is going to be the year, but we never do anything to make it our year. After the past couple years of my life going downhill (or however downhill a 21 year old's life can go [no not drugs wise]) I figured only good can come of this. This year I'm going to make it MY year.
First thing? I figured, I want to lose weight. I want to be healthier. I need to do right for my body after all this years. So what did I come up with? Resolutions. Not just your typical, lose weight get a job or whatever resolution. But I made a resolution on HOW I'm going to do it.
1) Lose weight. How? No I'm not on a diet, I made a lifestyle change, I turned vegetarian, and I'm trying to also cut out the bad snacks for me. Hit the gym everyday (well its been hard right now since im on vacation and dont really have access to go whenever i want). As well as give up soda.
-Only 20 days in to my new lifestyle change and I'm loving it. I don't miss meat, I don't miss junk food, (its been exactly three months now with no Mcdonalds, though i admit i still eat Chipotle but i haven't eaten it much especially cause of the vacay) and last but not least I don't miss soda. I also love being vegetarian because i see myself eating less than I used to and being content with what I am eating. I don't feel disgusting after.
2) Try new things I never would have. How? Food-wise especially is the biggest for me. I'm very picky when it comes to my food, I mean i LOVE my food or else I wouldn't be this big fat thing that I am today. If it looks unappetizing I wouldn't have tried it, but so far I've tried Ethiopian food (which looked like regurgitated food), I've tried different kinds of vegan dishes (but note I'm ONLY vegetarian), lol.
3) Be adventurous: How? This one goes with one and two, but i tried snowboarding for the first time! (even though I tried skiing when i was like 5 but they were totally different) It was amazing! I totally loved it. I also went to my first Drag Queen show last night with my brother and his girlfriend, and WOW was it an amazing experience. Also when I get back home, I want to do things I never would have done. Go Hiking, rock climbing and all that fun stuff!
4) Find a job. How? I've been on a mad job hunt while on vacation but it's really hard, and what I've figured, i'll hopefully be done with my cosmetology class by April and get my license hopefully by July, in which then I can try and find a job as an assistant. But for now I'm just trying to find a job as a receptionist.
but the most important resolution of all.
5) I WANT TO FIND MYSELF. Now this I cannot explain how I'm going to do this because I myself do not know how I will do this. But this one is the one I'm not going to rush. I hope maybe I can find the courage to find God as well while trying to find myself. Learn to love myself more and gain the confidence that I should have.
Like I said, 2013 is going to be my year. I'm not going to let anyone bring me down this year. No Drama and no let downs. And I hope everyone does the same. It's time for us to stop pitying ourselves and to start doing right by us. After all, we are born alone and we are going to die alone, so why not learn to love ourselves and be happy with ourselves? Let's not live the life for others but for ourselves.
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